I’ve never fully read The Velveteen Rabbit although I aim to rectify that state of affairs soon. Despite this gap in my reading history, there is a much repeated passage that has resonated with me for years. It is thus:
He said, “You become. It takes a long time. That’s why it doesn’t happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don’t matter at all, because once you are Real you can’t be ugly, except to people who don’t understand.”
Recent events have been transformational dear readers. In the life changing, evolutionary, shout it in capital letters, fucking HUGE kind of way. In a way that rocks you so that life as you know it will never be the same.
And let’s face it, I’ve seen a few of these events in my time…..
Feeling experimental and capitalising on a playful mood not so long ago, I changed my social media name. Last week I changed it again. One of my beloved friends asked me, in the same playful vein: Who ARE you?
Here is my answer.
I am amorphous.
Shedding skins that no longer serve me, I am a shape shifter.
Like the rainbow serpent of indigenous mythology, I am casting off the layers that mask the real me.
The infinite me.
The powerful, centered, fulfilled, inspired and inspiring me.
The me that lives and breathes the values I seek to embody – love, trust, authenticity, presence, service.
I am casting aside the stories that hold me back; my stories, their stories, everyone else’s stories, every single last one of them.
Worn out from this longing for belonging, I am no longer playing small.
I am owning my shit because it’s mine and because no one can make me feel anything; how I feel is my choice. Mine, I tell you, all mine.
Curious to the world and all who inhabit it, I never stop asking – what are you teaching me? Why are you here? Why, why, why?
I am all of you and none of you.
I am becoming……….
(c) Adrian Bell (https://www.facebook.com/adrianbellphotography/)